Your Everyday Girl

Reflections tend to trickle into my mind on Sunday evenings. I sometimes face some difficult questions, challenging tasks, or mind-numbing problems within the week, and so I try my hardest to expunge the negatives and take hold of the positives which remain. This last week, I’ve been battling with the present and trying to undestand what it takes to grasp the future I hope to attain. Even with a plan, it can all become quite overwhelming and perhaps impossible to envision at times.

I constantly have to remind myself to NOT always look at the bigger picture because, from where I’m standing, it’s definitely beautiful to see, but hard to believe that it can happen for me. So, I’m going to allow myself to wallow in this fear a bit: the fear of the unknown, the fear of the first step, the fear of a challenge, and the fear of failure. I’m going to allow myself to wade in these feelings so that they can become familiar and unnerving, so that soon enough, fear cannot stop me.

And with that being said, I wrote a poem to sum up my current feelings and thoughts in combination with my infatuation for the ocean.

Tides may push you down,

but they can’t hold you back,

flow through the waves,

where uneven waters,

test your sways,

two strokes forward,

the ocean will hit back,

immerse yourself in the plunge,

fear was always part of the plan.

Your everyday girl,

Sara